The Arachnoid Cyst Awareness Wheel n Walk 2011 UK, held in Olney, Buckinghamshire, was a fantastic day, which had not only a marvellous atmosphere, but also a genuine feeling of camaraderie. We laughed and sometimes cried together, as new and enduring friendships were made. On top of all that we raised money, through sponsorships, which will be used to help those who have Arachnoid Cysts and the many associated symptoms, illnesses and conditions that go with them. Thank you Dia for arranging such a wonderful day.
A couple of years ago I wrote a poem called ‘I’m Fine’, it was about Clinical Depression. Before, during and after our walk on the 16th April, through talking with fellow walkers, I realised that ‘I’m Fine’ described what is felt by those of us with an Arachnoid Cyst, as well as Clinical Depression. So I wrote another verse and revised the poem so that the focus is now on Arachnoid Cysts. OK, I know that it is not a happy poem, but I hope you like it.
‘I’m Fine’ or ‘As Others See Us’
Hello Chris you’re looking well, I thought you were ill!
Look into my eyes; see the countless private tears they have wept
See the overwhelming weariness, which makes my body ache
See the sleepless nights too many to remember
See the turmoil and pain which is my mind
Feel too proud to show the hurt; too proud to stop and rest
Feel ashamed that what you once, could! You can no longer do!
Feel the fear of letting others down
Feel the want; the desperate need to be believed
Feel the moods so dark, so powerful they have substance
Feel the weight of thoughts so heavy they cannot move
Feel the blameless guilt and shame so undeniable
I want to shout SORRY‼ For what I don’t know
All of these hidden behind a thin veneer
A veneer of false happiness and well-being
These and so much more
Just the tip of the iceberg that is the Arachnoid Cyst
Should I say? No, I’d better not.
Thank you, yes, I’m fine, how are you?